Orientation is done. Next week is the real thing.

I still have that strong urge to wallow in self pity, it takes all my will power to stop and forget about it. It goes away quickly then I'll forget about it the entire day. Then it will come back again the following morning.

I have a feeling that I'll feel that again on Monday.

I want it to stop! I'm tired!

I want to wear my uniform already! I want! I want!